Sunday, July 29, 2007
28 July 2007 Sat Went
NDP Preview 2007 wif YH today..
My virgin NDP.. It was really fun, to view d performances & fireworks real life..
Look at my NDP tattoos!!! Oh.. How much I love my country.. =P
Went C.Bar to chill out wif some frens after tat..
29 July 2007 Sun Lunch date wif BT @ Country M. in Gardens. Had fun crapping abt our lives, but I've to comment d cust service there sux.. No standard one.. Haiz..
Nway, went town to meet TQ & grp to celebrate Charis's bday aft dat.. Went to buy Charis's cake wif TQ, den we went into S.G. by d side door to give her d surprise wif K.. Then I ate again.. The whole day I've been eating & eating only.. No wonder I felt so bloated when I reached hm.. Gosh.. Indigestion again.. =X
`wind` posted at 11:50 PM.
Thursday, July 26, 2007
Woah.. I'm so happy today!!
A fren of mine actually ordered
Mac delivery to my hse when I told her I was hungry! So sweet & thoughtful of her.. Hee.. Then came d 2nd surprise.. A parcel delivered to my hse.. I mean I was informed beforehand tat there'll be some gifts delivered to me today, but I really din expect such a BIG box frm d postman! hee.. Thanks, gal.. U noe who u r.. =)
Went down to meet T for awhile b4 meeting my parents for dinner & shopped for some food in case I'm hungry ltr.. Oh ya..Pple, I'm going for NDP preview this Sat.. So excited.. MY FIRST TIME.. Ok, dun say I 'sua ku' or wat.. But usually I've other beta things to do ma.. bleah!
Nway, I'm really blessed to have so many frens ard me who truly care.. It's a bit saddening to think that some pple who were once so close to u couldn't even care for u lk a norm fren wld.. But, I guess there cld be a reason behind it too.. Well.. A big thank you to all who really care.. =)
`wind` posted at 11:55 PM.
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
21 July 2007 Sat Was feeling v down due to some reasons..
Really thankful to all my frens who had been there for me.. Be it physically accompanying me, tru MSN, occasional phone calls and sms.. Ur care & concern had been felt & greatly appreciated.. THANK YOU!!
Nway,went AMK Hub wif T today.. Wat else can I say except for:
I AM REALLY GLAD THAT U R HERE FOR ME ALL THE WAY.. Talked abit on my past r/s.. Guess I was still pretty affected by them esp 1 particular long r/s which got me so hurt tat I think I may have repress d feelings even till today.. But aft d talk, I was feeling slightly beta.. At least, I was being honest to myself & it sort of explained certain behaviours too.. Not going to elaborate here, but ya.. Thanks,my fren.. =)
22 July 2007 Sun RETAIL THERAPY~!!! Went shopping wif T & Charis @ Bugis.. Then C went off to meet her bf at 5+, so left T & me.. Wanted to buy a watch, but kind of diff to find one tat I really like or suits me, so went to eat my fave b.hoon & chix wing instead.. After tat, went M.S. coz need to hlp her sis get a bag frm d Australian Fair coz today is d last day! But b4 dat, we went to my fave outlet & I finally got myself something.. hehe..
~~Was kinda surprised to receive a call frm u at nite.. But I was really glad tat we had dat talk.. I felt much much beta after dat.. Tears which had been dropping randomly at weird hours stopped flowing after dat talk & I knew frm dat moment on, I've moved on.. It will lead us nowhere if we continue pointing fingers at each other.. Perhaps we r nt suitable (lk wat u said), perhaps we din try hard enough (wat i think).. But all I can say is: THANK YOU.. For all d wonderful memories u've given me in this short period of time.. For giving me d opportunity to learn more abt myself & other valuable lessons coz I believe dat there's always something positive to bring back in any event, be it gd or bad.. & I wish u all d best in ur future endeavor.. =) ~~ 24 July 2007 Tues Went town to meet 2 frens - old frens which can be counted by yrs ever since my 1st serious r/s.. Got to noe them tru my 1st ex.. Then life moves on so fast tat counting back, it was almost 6 or 7 yrs.. & it's really great to be sitting down & talking abt our lives aft so long.. Nway,I guess this is one of d gd thing which turn out as a result of my recent break-up.. I learnt to appreciate my frens beta..
Nway, today, a fren juz came back frm KL.. I am so happy.. Thanks for being there for me when I was down.. It was really heart-warming to receive all d sms-es frm u even thou u were on a vacation.. It's nice to know someone care so much for me.. =)
`wind` posted at 10:40 AM.
Friday, July 20, 2007
紧紧相依的心如何 Say goodbye
I'm going to analyse this simple statement from Gary's song, 背叛.
When it's translated to Eng, it means: How can 2 closely knitted & interdependent hearts say goodbye to each other?
Hmm..sounds unbelievable, but those of u who had been tru serious heartaches knew v clearly how common this situation can juz occur in any kind of r/s.. Well.. There r many possibilities why this may happen & today I’m juz going to briefly discuss some of them here.
To begin wif, let's question the idea of the 2 hearts being closely knitted & interdependent. As much as we wld love to believe tat this is the case for all serious r/s tat we went tru, the ques on to what extend this statement holds true is still largely debatable. When we 1st meet someone new, we do not have access to much info until we started talking to them. Therefore, one of the earliest cues that we used to assess the individuals in front of us wld be frm their physical appearance, nonverbal communication & overt behaviour. In layman's terms, it simply means that one can be attracted to another due to d good impression formed. Then the r/s is brought to another lvl as these 2 beings started to communicate more. Things like common interests/beliefs, benefits etc will be explored and judged based on one's background and value systems. And this is the stage where many pple will be confused wif the limited info gained. Many wld assume tat the other party suits them coz of certain common topics and perhaps they were further impressed by the person's style, personality etc. And a common mistake made at this stage is the tendency to ask for a status or committment. This is a complicating issue as many pple r in fact asking for more than what they can handle or getting into a situation which they have no idea what it's like. To prevent my blog frm becoming more like a doctoral thesis, I shall summarise this para now. What appeared to be strong in a r/s cld be juz an illusion formed based on one's self-fulfilling prophecies, therefore if d idea that 2 hearts r closely knitted & interdependent in a r/s may nt even be true in d 1st plc, den saying goodbye after one or both parties realise this pt sldn't be a diff task afterall, isn't it?
Next, let's assume that tis statement tat d 2 hearts r closely knitted & interdependent is true. What r some reasons then that allow this strong connection to be broken w/o much warning? Well, my point of view is that things dun happened w/o warning. There r always signs telling us tat something is nt rite, thou nt all these will be clear to us as sometimes they cld be too subtle or sometimes we r too blinded to see them. Nway, back to d point on what r some reasons which d abv may happen, I think it has a strong link to a person's personality & background. For example, a person may be someone who's too strong in character to accept criticism or feedbacks and when they felt that they were being critised, they internalise these comments & focus on d negative parts, leading to a conclusion tat d person who offered these feedbacks do not understand them. Another e.g., a person may not be equip wif d necessary skills to cope wif d demands of a r/s due to his/her background, mb not being exposed or exp in such matter, perhaps it's d fear arising frm past failed r/s, or simply tat they do not dare to love too much for fear of getting hurt. Hence, a r/s may juz break down coz of one or both parties not being able to handle their own emotions which is strongly related to their personalities & background.
In summary, 2 closely knitted & interdependent hearts can say goodbye to each other for far too many reasons. Some of them discussed in tis entry are d possibility tat d abv statement is juz an illusion formed based on one’s self-fulfilling prophecies. And even if d statement is true, there r many factors tat play a part in d breaking down of a r/s, for example, a person’s inability to handle their own emotions due to their personalities & background. Other issues which I wld lk to explore, but did not due to time/words constraint is d idea of insecurity & self-awareness. Well, I will talk more abt them when I feel like it. Nway, to all who have been following my blog, I’m officially single again. The availability part will come later. For now, expanding & getting back my social network is far more impt. And I need time to really reflect on my life if I want it to be fruitful. Plus I think I’ve enough frm pple who r nt compatible to me based on our intellectual & emotional lvl, so ya, I dun wanna get involve so soon w/o making sure of what I’m getting myself into. I really need someone who can connect wif me both intellectually and emotionally. So maturity is definitely a must when it comes to my choice of partner. Ok.. enough said. The end.
`wind` posted at 3:05 PM.
背叛
雨 不停落下来
花 怎么都不开
尽管我细心灌溉
你说不爱就不爱
我一个人
欣赏悲哀
爱 只剩下无奈
我 一直不愿再去猜
钢琴上黑键之间
永远都夹着空白
缺了一块
就不精采
紧紧相依的心如何
Say goodbye
你比我清楚还要我说明白
爱太深会让人疯狂的勇敢
我用背叛自己
完成你的期盼
把手放开不问一句
当作最后一次对你的溺爱
冷冷清清淡淡今后都不管
只要你能愉快
心 有一句感慨
我 还能够跟谁对白
在你关上门之前
替我再回头看看
那些片段
还在不在
`wind` posted at 8:05 AM.
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
07 July 2007 Sat 1st visit to
toca me bar..
Hmm..gd ambience, I must comment..
But plc is kinda small wif little entertainment..
Coz there's no pool table, no ktv, no cards/dices..
A gd plc for pple to chill out..
Juz drinking and chatting..
Ya.. u get d pic.. =X
Nway, got free chix wings - complimentary frm d next table's guy.. He was super friendly wif us d moment we stepped in & settled down in our sofa seats.. & I muz say he loves to talk, man.. Talked & talked non-stop.. Wld be a great entertainment to me, if only he'd spoken my language, but he talked mostly in canto & thai, which only Jo und, while d rest of us were lk either spending 90% of d time guessing, if nt, we were juz simply nt interested in his talk after awhile.. Towards d end of d nite, everyone suddenly got super-emo.. It's amazing what alcohol can do to u.. Repressed feelings were unfold.. Tears were shed.. But not by me.. Lolx.. I'm super stable & sober la.. =P
Ok, cab-bed down to ECP to
YL's chalet.. There,I drank orange juice lk my life depends on them.. Dun ask me why.. Mb after tasting beer d whole nite, orange juice seemed so heavenly for me.. hee..ate a donut too.. Then we played a few round of card, watched some old show & eventually fell aslp, wif me complaining abt my hunger, as usual.. =P
~Pls tk care of urself, my fren.. Stop smoking & drink lesser.. Dun let pple who care for u worried..~ 08 July 2007 Sun Yay!! The day tat u r back..
Words can't describe my joy to have u back by my side.. Coz d feelings were just so overwhelming, but ur frens were there & it's a public plc afterall.. Even when we were left alone, I dun dare to be too expressive.. Coz I was afraid tat u'll feel uncomfortable.. Sometimes, I wish I can really read ur mind.. It's juz so torturing to see u so close yet so far.. u were cold, but I cldn't even give u d warmth u need.. So many ques popped up in my mind..
"Sld I or not?" >> "Do u want or not?" >> "Wld u mind or not?" >> Coz it's a public plc, u see..
& I've to keep stopping myself frm moving too close to u.. Hmm.. Nway, juz glad tat u r back..
Thanks for d gifts.. Love them dearly.. =P
~~Love d time spent alone wif u..~~ 09 Jul 2007 Mon Was suppose to do some sharing wif the class today..
Well, I'd been kinda bz for d past wk & oso wasn't feeling too well.. So din really have time to read & digest d article.. Nevertheless, I still manage to deliver a satisfying sharing session to d class.. Hee.. Whew.. Dat's juz so ME.. Ok, nw I'm left wif another 'last-min' challenge.. To complete my 2500 words essay by tmr..
Oh btw, pple.. Look at d time of this post..
IT ALREADY TMR!& I'm still here blogging.. Gosh.. Ok.. Time to log out & concentrate.. Well..u all r so lucky.. To be having sweet dreams while I'm here slogging.. haha.. Ok, haven start yet.. Going to start slogging now.. So sweet dreams & JIA YOU to myself.. =D
`wind` posted at 1:50 AM.
Friday, July 6, 2007
It's the durian season now.. Oh yeah.. ^_^
And dat's makes me really happy coz I love durians..
But I think I ate a little too much for d past few days tat I'm having diarrhoea today.. =(
Well, not only durians, i guess.. I've been taking loads of junk food like chocolates & cakes.. oOooo... So sinfully yUmMy.. coz my craving seemed to win d battle over my self-control each time.. Opps.. It's all my sweet tooth's fault.. =P
Nway, starting last nite, I kept feeling v bloated, den from time to time, seemed to have gastric discomfort.. So much so that I couldn't even slp.. =X So I took a tablet of the med bought by J last time and after a while, I finally felt slightly beta..
Then today, I had diarrhoea.. Haiz..
Went to d toilet 3 times alr, I hope I'm alrite now..
OHH!! PLS LET ME FEEL BETTER NOW!! Nway, went shopping yest.. Din really intend to buy much coz short of cash, I guess..
Or rather, I need to save more now.. =X
In d end, I really din buy much except for a ear stud, which my frens all proclaimed that it suit me to a T..
So yea, was kinda v happy wif my small purchase..
And I guess that's ME.. I'm someone who's quite easily contented wif v small things.. And this is something my ex-es or frens who really noe me can testify against.. I can be v happy over v small things, for e.g., juz buy certain food for me to eat, and I'll be grinning from left to right like a little kid.. hehe.. =D
Oh ya, I suddenly feel lk typing out a mini "want list".. Maybe to make myself feel beta.. So here goes:
1) A new HP (Hmm..I want something budget yet gd.. mb SE W810i, N6288 or N5200.. Any comments?)
2) Jeans (to replace the one dat was stolen..)
3) Watch
4) Blazer/jacket
5) Shoes/sneakers
6) SB and lingerie (hehe..)
7) Shades
8) More tank top/tees/shirts etc.. Hmm..dat's abt all I can think of at the moment..
I mean, those tat r not v realistic at the moment, I'll refrain frm listing..
If not, the list will be nv-ending, isn't it? =P
~thanks for eveything u have given me..appreciate ur help and presence..~
`wind` posted at 10:00 PM.
Wednesday, July 4, 2007
Stayed hm the whole day..Not having the best mood..
Mum seemed to have a way in spoiling my mood..
Wif all her selfish values and tots which she'd been trying to force me to adopt..
Well, lk wat i always say, u can have ur way of thinking, juz dun force everyone to think like u..
And I do see ur point, but when will u see mine? Totally disgusted.. So went to my room and rested..
And guess what?
It totally slipped my mind that I'm suppose to have class today!! haha.. wat a joke.. It wasn't until M sms me to ask if my class ended that I realised I actually missed my lesson unintentionally!! OMG!!!
And when u r not in a gd mood, every small little thing suddenly start to get onto ur nerves..I was frustrated with when I answered a call, but the person hang up on me.. =x
I was frustrated when I need to change my sim cards over coz one of the phone's batt almost went dead and I dun have the charger wif me.. =/
I was frustrated that I have to reset the time/date of the phones.. =\
Then I realised that I'm hungry AGAIN!!
Ok.. mb dat's part of the cause of my frustration.. lolx.. so I went to get some cereal to eat..
Now, back at my com.. Still hungry..
But feeling beta, i guess.. I hope so too..
Alrite, dat's abt all I can think of blogging at the moment..
Hmmm.. Sld I eat dat milk choco?~~I'm sorry to have make u worried..but u managed to make me smile when we talked.. Counting down to the day I can see & hold u in my arms.. I miss u..~~
`wind` posted at 11:40 PM.
Sunday, July 1, 2007
28 June 2007 ThursI'll always rmb this day.. I had
a photo shoot to attend and thus had abt 3 sets of clothings plus many accessories wif me.. Aft the shoot, I went to wait for M to pick me up.. Den we went NT for dinner and then head down to
Play..
Although she wasn't feeling v well dat day, we did had fun and I saw many of my frens which made me happy too.. But wat happened at the end of the day was a total surprise to us..
When we get back to our car, we realised that the car was unlocked! And the next thing we know left us dumbfounded.. Someone had brk into our car and stolen all our valuables!! Damn it.. The police was called and we spent the next few hrs waiting for them to investigate and tk our statements.. Haiz.. wat a thing to happen juz 2 days b4 she fly off..
What I lost (estimated value) :Ipod shuffle - $200 (it was a gift)Nokia hp + M-card - $300Shades & accessories (chains & ear rings) - $100+My fave tight-fitting jeans plus a branded tanktop- $200Formal wear (blouse, pants and heels) - $150My fave jacket, tee & SB - $120Fila gym bag - $50My perfume - unknown - it was a gift & I cldn't find it anywhere.. =((Sentimental value - pricelessThere are some things money can't buy.. For everything else, there's Mastercard..So I'm glad my Mastercard is still with me.. lolx..OMG~!! I can still joke abt this.. Means I m still ok.. I hope..However, i guess everything happens for a reason..
And I was really glad that both of us stayed strong throughout the whole incident..
~~Today is the 1st day tat u r so far away frm me since the day i noe u.. I'll keep to my promise to be gd while waiting for u to be back.. i love u, baby.. Pls dun doubt me no more.. mUackz.. Missing u deeply..~~~to a special fren: thanks for being there for me tru my ups & downs..ur every actions of care has been greatly felt & appreciated.. =) ~
`wind` posted at 2:50 PM.
